RANDOM TO THE R

Yeah THE mood is upon me again. I am at a major cross road right now. There is nothing that really ticks me off more than not having a clear plan for what to do next. I feel out of sorts.

Like i am on a never ending wheel of wake-eat-work-eat-work-home-tv-eat-sleep. Like Stacie Orrico sang, 'There's gotta be more to life'.

I have thought long and hard about this and i think what i really gets people by is being a testimony. That's why we have friends, family, lovers and enemies. So that there will be someone out there who can tell of our lives. Who can watch our progress through life and either cheer on or jeer on.

It's almost like a stamp of approval proving your existence in this world. If i am right then I should feel fulfilled (considering the abundance of people in my life to testify lol) but i am not. As human beings do we ever get satisfied? Is there not always something more to strive for?

Maybe i am an overachiever and don't literally know when to stop. I must have the same spirit that Paul had when he said, 'Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me'. I find i am not alone in my dilemma. It ain't a new problem at all. Is there a solution? I would like to think so.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ignore my 5 minutes madness for the day. I once said that Boredom is one step down from madness. How true is that? Very very true. Out of boredom i have nearly convinced myself that i am not just bored but depressed.

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY. Lol!!

PS: This mood i can boldly lay at CATWALQ's door step. Her friday post has sent me into tears already today.

Update: London Buki's mom died. Please keep her in your prayers. My prayer is for strength for the whole family through this time of grief.