Thursday, February 10, 2011

Take back what was stolen

It is so easy to loose track of yourself. I remember coming on here and complaining about being 12 stone!!

Well the watermelon diet worked for a little while but no exercise was my downfall.

This year on the 13th of January to be precise, unbiased weighed in at 12st7pounds (175pounds - 79.4kg).

All due to the fact that i just believed i looked fine and my body was always meant to be this size. Like it was destiny, age and my genes messing me up.

NO IT WASN'T!!!! It was all ME!!!

So then i get chatting to my pal the 'toaster' and saw how she was shedding pounds like crazy.

I asked for the secret and she asked me 'How bad do you want it?'.

I decided i wanted it really bad. I mean i am not being unrealistic. I just want my 2007 body back!!

So now i am on something called the 'Warrior diet' and i am exercising. Diet alone cannot guarantee sustained weight loss. It takes brutal physical punishment.
My punishment is i walk 1.5hrs every day coupled with some weight training video's to tone the muscles.

It is working!!!

Today my weight is (Drum roll)

73.5kg - 162pounds - 11st 8

That is HUGE for one month.

So i am so happy i am going off to go punish my body some more.
I am the master here.
I dictate what it can consume.
I dictate what it can look like.
I will not allow it to embarrass me any longer.
I am the captain of my ship and ruler of my destiny.
I!! No one but I!!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010


First of all i did not write this. I have had it for over 5years now and came across it again. The words were so inspirational i decided to share. Don't let the first couple of lines get your down. Read to the end and stand proud in your blackness!!

Why Did You Make Me Black Lord ... Lord ... Why did you make me black?

Why did you make someone the world would hold back?

Black is the color of dirty clothes, of grimy hands and feet...

Black is the color of darkness, of tired> beaten streets...

Why did you give me thick lips, a broad nose and kinky hair???

Why did you create someone who receives the hated stare???

Black is the color of the bruised eye when someone gets hurt...

Black is the color of darkness; black is the color of dirt.

Why is my bone structure so thick, my hips and cheeks so high???

Why are my eyes brown, and not the color of the sky???

Why do people think I'm useless? How come I feel so used?

Why do people see my skin and think I should be abused???

Lord, I just don't understand... What is it about my skin?

Why is it some people want to hate me and not know the person within???

Black is what people are "Labeled" when others want to keep them away...

Black is the color of shadows cast...

Black is the end of the day.

Lord you know my own people mistreat me, and you know this just ain't right...

They don't like my hair; they don't like my skin, as they say

I'm too dark or too light!!! Lord, don't you think it's time to make a change?

Why don't your redo creation and make everyone the same???

God's Reply...

Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black?

I made you in the color of coal from which beautiful diamonds are formed...

I made you in the color of oil, the black gold that keeps people warm.

Your color is the same as the rich dark soil that grows the food you need...

Your color is the same as the black stallion and panther,

Oh what majestic creatures indeed!!!

All colors of the heavenly rainbow can be found throughout every nation...

When all these colors are blended, you become my greatest creation!!! >

Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool, such a beautiful creature is he...

I am the shepherd who watches them, I will ALWAYS watch over thee!!!

You are the color of the midnight sky; I put star glitter in your eyes...

There's a beautiful smile hidden behind your pain...

That's why your cheeks are so high!!!

You are the color of dark clouds from the hurricanes I create in September...

I made your lips so full and thick, so when you kiss...they will remember!!!

Your stature is strong, your bone structure thick to withstand the burden of time...

The reflection you see in the mirror, that image that looks back, that is MINE!!!

So get off your knees, look in the mirror and tell me what you see?

I didn't make you in the image of darkness...

I made you in the image of ME !!

Till next time blogville!!

Saturday, July 24, 2010


I was reading my Bible and all i could think about was science and attitude.
Now scientists have gone to great lengths to produce a perfect vacuum but the slightest shift and it is quickly filled.

There i was in 1 Samuel 17:14. The Spirit of the Lord had left Saul (When God rejected him as King) and moved to David (when he was anointed as King).
The bible says an evil spirit then came to torment Saul (Something had to fill the vacuum). This evil spirit would manifest in his behavior. He had violent bursts of temper and became unreasonable and downright sinful. So through some trick of fate David is brought in to play the harp and soothe the spirit within Saul.

In my opinion, it was not the music but the Spirit of God in David that made Saul's spirit back down.

Something always needs to take an upper hand and i wander what have i stopped doing in my live and what has replaced that time. Analyze your life and see if it is where you want it be and what you can do to get it on track.

Another puzzling thing is David's attitude.
I cant get over it so i will just list it out in points.
  • God sent Samuel to anoint David as King over Israel when he was a mere boy. Then sends him back to watch his father's sheep.
  • He is sent for to come and be a harp player (servant) for the King (Who he can choose to call an imposter.He does not but recognizes that God anointed him King also).
  • He choose to serve him even if he did not always agree with him.
  • He learned from being in Saul's court about being a soldier and king after all what did a Shepard know of kingship?
  • He became friends with Saul's son Jonathan. He did not see him as a contender for the throne but as a brother. In his mind if God had called him to be king he would be and that was the end of it.
  • He learned from Saul's mistakes and kept God as his king and tried his best to serve Him.
  • His attitude is one of 'God anointed me as the NEXT King of Israel'. So he waited for over 20years to hear 'The King is dead, Long live the King'. This happened when he was 37years old.
David's patience and servitude is admirable and worth emulating. Next time my boss pisses me off, i will think of David and how my boss is there to push me to be all God wants me to be.

David only started running into trouble when he disobeyed the laws God had set out and started marrying foreign women. God did not put this law down to slight foreigners but as a way to stop the adoption of foreign cultures that will turn their hearts away from Him.

God also said marry one wife and he strayed from this as well. It's hard enough to handle one wife so i don't know why anyone will want another (Double trouble?). Anyways he had 8 official wives. It is worth noting that he married his second third and fourth wives while in the wilderness running from Saul. They were Ahinoam the Jezreelite; Abigail the Carmelite, (previously wife of Nabal); and Maachah(daughter of Talmai, king of Geshur).

I guess there is too much to be learned so i am going off to learn more but these are the main points for today.
  • Be patient and wait for God's time.
  • Listen to God's law. They are there for a reason and will guide you on the right path.
  • Do not despise your days of humble beginnings. They will make you who you will eventually become.
  • Have a repentant heart. Don't not be too proud to say when you have done wrong and correct the situation.
  • Be humble in what ever position you find yourself and you will eventually be elevated.
Until next time blogville have fun!!!