GOODBYE MAMA

Mama Unbiased died on the 15th of September 2009 (Aged 60).
How do i feel? Shocked!!

I remember her ready smiles followed by that quiet chuckle.

I remember taking my birthday cakes for granted because I knew she would always bake them herself and they'd always be the best.

I remember her smooth hairless skin and wandering why mine was so hairy.

I remember how secretly happy she was when I got scared in my own room and crawled into her bed at night.

I remember her teaching me how to cook and keep the kitchen spotless at the same time.

I remember standing in her room with the temperature at 2 degrees and freezing.

I remember her amazing decorating skill and wandering if I could match up.

I remember playing with her makeup, clothes and shoes.

I remember her days of camping out at the hospital every time I was sick.

I remember the tender care I got when I had chicken pox or that nasty boil at the back of my neck.

I remember nicking her ‘Bring down the glory’ cassette by Panam Percy Paul.

I remember days of long conversation and debates on just about anything.

I remember her strong unwavering faith in the face of opposition.

I remember how I learnt the littlest things just by watching and wandering if I could fill her shoes.

I remember being really proud of her and thinking that just by association her accomplishments were mine.

I remember the littlest and biggest things in a flash. It overwhelms me. It scares me. Is she gone? I am told she is on holiday and I will get to see her someday?

Is that true? Will I? What do I do between now and then?

And then I remember her favourite psalm. Psalm 121.

I look to the hills! Where will I find help? It will come from the LORD, who created the heavens and the earth. The LORD is your protector, and he won't go to sleep or let you stumble. The protector of Israel doesn't doze or ever get drowsy. The LORD is your protector, there at your right side to shade you from the sun. You won't be harmed by the sun during the day or by the moon at night. The LORD will protect you and keep you safe from all dangers. The LORD will protect you now and always wherever you go.